Less drama

Talked over phone with Z for 4 hours last night. I was like "Bud, you know what, I wish I could just have a simple life like you. It's like a luxury to me."

Even though I chose to escape and wish sometimes time could flow faster, there would be a moment of unexpected five minutes that totally ravaged the peace in your heart. This twisted convergence in time and space delivers a feeling that is not mentioned in any of the books, you have to be there to get the feeling.

And somehow in a split seconds someone captured another moment. When you go back and look at that years later, it's amazing to see how proximal people are. One step forward, one step sideways, it may totally be another story.

These thoughts keep emerging in my head. Even I close my eyes, the endless possibilities sometimes toss tons of hope in front of me, cheers me up while frustrates me at the same time. Five years ago I was re-invented. I am eager for a simple life. But before that, there's still a long way to go. I know it, but i just can't help torturing myself once in a while.

This reminds me the process of drawing a picture: a starter can only draw very simple but rough outlines. an adept can do delicate silhouette, texturing, shadow and highlighting with complicated techniques. The master go back to simplicity; few but determinant and accurate lines captures the spirit of the object. I wish i am at the secondd step now, but hell, i don't know.

If i got to choose whether to be re-invented or not, i prob will still choose the same. But i wish i could undergo that process earlier.

Let the be-gone be gone. Promise a future with hope.
Will I be able to do it with you?