'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

I am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.

The first story is about connecting the dots.

I dropped out of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit. So why did I drop out?

It started before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I popped out they decided at the last minute that they really wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My biological mother later found out that my mother had never graduated from college and that my father had never graduated from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers. She only relented a few months later when my parents promised that I would someday go to college.

And 17 years later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in on the ones that looked interesting.

It wasn't all romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless later on. Let me give you one example:

Reed College at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the amount of space between different letter combinations, about what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical, artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I found it fascinating.

None of this had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear looking backwards ten years later.

Again, you can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something — your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

My second story is about love and loss.

I was lucky — I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in 10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just released our finest creation — the Macintosh — a year earlier, and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him. So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.

I really didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn on me — I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was still in love. And so I decided to start over.

I didn't see it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter one of the most creative periods of my life.

During the next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I returned to Apple, and the technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family together.

I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

My third story is about death.

When I was 17, I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right." It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33 years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change something.

Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

About a year ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your family. It means to say your goodbyes.

I lived with that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there, told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had the surgery and I'm fine now.

This was the closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a useful but purely intellectual concept:

No one wants to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.

Your time is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be trapped by dogma — which is living with the results of other people's thinking. Don't let the noise of others' opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.

When I was young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation. It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch. This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters, scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.

Stewart and his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog, and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue. It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off. Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for you.

Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish.

Thank you all very much.
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生活的波澜

下午接到一个老朋友的电话，在高速上出了车祸差点就没了。好在人大难有福，皮肉伤也没有。就是车子就这么挂了。
有时候，命运喜欢和人开点玩笑，玩笑开大了，就无法挽回了。
所以呢，我们要珍惜每一天，好好的活着，轻轻松松的和命运打情骂俏，有时候她玩笑开得有点大有点心血来潮，也不要和她翻脸。事情想得积极点，好好的和她相处，避免把她惹急了，跟你玩真的，那就吃不了兜着走了。

:)

媒体的进化

我本在media这个领域应该是完全没有任何的发言权的，但是呢，反正这个是自己的自留地，也就说几句吧。

自己过去也读过一些关于Media方面的书，然后在Media界也算混过一段时间，稍微对这个行业有一些了解。去年曾经和几个朋友做过一段时间的blog service，怎奈自己实在是太懒惰，所以基本上最后算是流产了。上周Ann Arbor News宣布破产了，这件事情居然都上了New York Times，让我都有种不甚荣幸的感觉。于是顺势关注了一下相关的新闻。至少在美国，纸质媒体的消失目前基本也就是一个时间问题了。各大主要的门户报纸也在积极地拓宽网络上的资源以适应新的大环境。San Francisco 可能将成为美国第一个没有主流报纸发行的城市。

当时在NY times上还是CNN上的这则新闻中有差不多这样的一句话，"One of the biggest threat to newspaper is mobile devices; people now can access news at ease with smart phones on the go." 当时很讽刺的是，我当时就是从自己的iphone上读这个新闻的。

那么，在这个变革的时期，在人们获取新闻的渠道已经逐渐从电视新闻报纸杂志转移到门户网站搜索引擎和social network的时候，什么样的business model是最有可能成功的呢？

我说一个自己经历过的从social network上获得新闻的例子。这还要追溯到2006年，当时还在国内没有出来的时候。有一天下午有事请离开了学校一阵子，回来之后发现QQ的群里以30-40行的速度在不停的刷屏。当时学校出了一起凶杀案，而这类事情在国内一般来说都会被和谐和低调的处理。我的一个朋友恰好离现场不远，然后关于这个案件的讨论就迅速的展开了。那么我在官方没有任何信息公布的时候，就从自己的network上得知了这个新闻的梗概，也获取了很多第一手的信息。从这个例子我想说明的是三点：第一，网络上新闻传播速度的时效性是远高于传统媒体的，这点也可以从去年的印度孟买的恐怖活动时候Twitter的每秒22次更新得到证明；在那次事件中现场的人们用手机上网在social network上散发了大量的图片和文字信息，其精确度和更新频率都是传统媒体忘尘莫及的。第二，则是在social network的框架下，新闻的可信度也大大地增加了。一些完善的social network要求人们以真实的姓名来完成注册，比如facebook。虽然虚假的个人信息仍然存在，但是这个情况和论坛有很大区别，fake identity并不能保证正常的social activity。所以当你上facebook看到自己的好朋友或者熟人描述一个新闻或者一个事件的时候，这个信息的可信度甚至会超越报纸-因为它的来源是一个自己了解的entity。第三，基于social network的信息传递更加personal。当你阅读到一个blog文章描述的一个事件或者新闻的时候，比起传统的媒介，这种夹杂着个人情感的描述更容易让读者引发共鸣。Newspaper强调的是客观性（专栏分析除外），阅读美国的新闻类报纸你就会发现，记者对于每一个信息的来源都要加上reference: officer said..victim said.. according to some source.. blah blah；而且基于很多限制即使是分析类的文章也不能像写自己的blog一样畅所欲谈。网络上的信息传递把人们从这些限制约束中解放出来，可以更真实的去表达自己的想法。在文字真实的时候，沟通也就变得容易了。

其实说了这些很多感觉也就是废话。那么在未来，什么样的媒体会得到尽可能多的用户的关注呢？

IMHO我认为是一种介于social network和blog之间的hybrid。Social network系统本身内部比较开放，但是对外封闭，并不适合广泛的信息交流并且在blogging上缺乏flexibility。而blog系统的开放性也导致了social networking的局限性，大量的非真实identity(或者本身就是作者本身的sub identities)会降低信息的credibility增加communication的难度。虽然现在也有越来越多的人们以自己的实名在写blog。而且blog系统虽然有tag这种social annotation system，但是信息的结构仍然不如social network system那么的清晰。

还有一些其它的想法，以后有时间再写。

btw, 今天居然没有爆发周日综合症。心里还是很纠结，但是比起前几天已经好了几个数量级了。
不会输给别人，只会输给自己。

Three years soon

First day this year that I played outdoor basketball here. My knees were so spoiled by the indoor floors through winter that every hop on the concrete ground will give me more or less a frown.

Oh, and it's going to be almost three years since I am here. Confined in this small town. Never before I feel so much i want to bail out of this place as soon as possible. Spring is around the corner, it will be the best season of the year. But everything is so predictable here, monotonous.

At least the career track is much clearer than a couple of years before.
And that's all.

'Why can't you rescue me, cuz you got all I need. I know I got to pay the price.'

1 hour of down time, over.

新的挑战

这只不过是新的挑战罢了。之前的生活，都过去顺利了。
一切也都在预料之中。既然有超越普通的追求，那么就伴随着不同寻常的磨练。
看着吧，J。
看着自己是怎么从历练中走过来的。
既然轻松的得到了别人想要的东西，那么就要付出百倍努力去得到别人可以轻松得到的东西。
我很贪心，什么都想要。
既然everything has a price，一次又付不起
那么就慢慢的去pay吧。
等待check out的那一天。

Maybe, it's another replicate of history.
But i will risk, one more time.

I know you are exhausted

I know you are exhausted. I can envision this day even from the first minute of our encounter. You have way more luggage on your back that I could not share for now, but all is for that fore future. I can see more beyond this day, but we just need to come through this downhill first. Even though at the the end of day, you are frustrated, mentally exhausted, physically out, got mud all over your face...then you simply reach out to the finishing line

Hey, I won.

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HP中国地区总裁孙振耀的退休感言
Part 1
Part 2

花了30分钟仔细的阅读了一下。写几点感想：

1. 梗概。孙先生的世界观和我的导师哲学家的世界观是一致的，辩证唯物主义。辩证唯物主义的主要思维方式是分清主观客观，主要矛盾和次要矛盾，抓住主要矛盾，主观服从客观。孙先生对于晚辈的教导给予我的理解，就是下面的一个框架：问清楚自己想要的是什么，设定一个长远的奋斗目标，然后努力的坚持跑到终点。

2. 追求。我比较清楚自己在未来十年内追求的是什么；但是更加长远的目标，有一个思维的方向，然而还没有得出一个结果。这些需要动态的，持续的努力。人生35年的工作时间，我尚且没有开始；一切更多的精彩，甚至还没有走上舞台。必须时刻保持一颗期待的心，旺盛的斗志。特别是在艰难的时候，坚持显得尤其重要。

3. 坚持。不坚持乃是我的一大缺点。文章中也提到了，当生活变得不尽人意的时候，需要的是隐忍和不懈的努力。人往往不是败给了敌人，而是败给了沮丧的自己。牢骚是可以发的，情绪是可以波动的，酒是可以喝的，该做的事情必须是要一直去努力的做的。有人发牢骚之后颓唐，有人发牢骚之后振奋，有人不发牢骚的坚持。前者是过去的我，后者也许是未来的我，中间这个平衡状态其实我比较喜欢。给自己放松放松之后，轻装上阵。

4. 长远。在五十而不惑的人看来，他看世界的纵深感是远远要超过接近三十岁的我的。孙先生文章中提到了一个'TriggerPoint'的理论我并非非常的赞同；这个TriggerPoint的理论是人生不需要太大的计划，而是如何去把握一些关键的机会。其实或者孙先生没有完全的说明这个理论。在我看来，IMHO，因为我们都不是先知，每个人也不都具有敏锐的直觉，对于机会的把握还是来源于准备。我必须首先对自己未来大致的方向有一个规划，才不会在命运中随波逐流；这样当机会到来的时候，自己具备了把握机会的客观条件，剩下的就是主观能动性的发挥了。比如去年的GSoC和今年夏天实习这个机会，我在过去的两年中一直做着为了将来industry工作的准备，所进行的训练和学习也是围绕着这样的一个目标；这样当机会来临的时候，客观上我就具备了这些条件，这样需要的只是主观上的一些努力。倘若我漫无目的的为了将来是做什么方向一直彷徨，那么精力的分散（其实也浪费了很多时间，惭愧，修行差的还遥远）也不会让自己在机会到达的时候具有客观的条件；客观条件不具备，主观上操作就及其困难了。

5. 积累。这一点和坚持是对应的。很多时候，即便是去旅游，也不能仅仅是went there, did that，要maximize every opportunity.过去的network，也要一直去keep in touch着，我自己认为这一点做得还算不错，但是圈子毕竟还是不够宽广，在需要的时候也不能完全的起到作用。这些等到工作之后都要努力的去发展。虽然现在想来可能还有些遥远，但是人一定是有一个明确的目标才能不停的前进的，而不停的积累是在前进中必须不时去提醒自己的事情。

所以，现在也是对自己 坚持，隐忍和积累的一个训练过程。正是因为这个目标是自己的心的追求，那么对于路上遇到的困难也要区分对待。

如果立刻就可以克服的就快刀乱麻的迅速解决
如果是不能立刻解决的则需要愚公移山的精神将困难破解后逐个渐进解决
如果客观情况下难以攻陷则需要找到通向目标的其他道路

这并不是 ‘什么困难都不怕’ 的简单思维。

失态

很久没有这样了。今天在篮球场上开始打得顺风顺水，老黑老白照样搞定，有一球还闪过了老白运过了老黑。可是半程之后没有体力了，然后自己的急躁也写在了脸上，对队友也喝来喊去，其实是对自己不满意。即使是篮球，为什么也不每一球每一球去努力的做到最好呢？可是太想赢了，就忘记了去享受比赛的过程。

临走的时候突然发现手机不见了，找了半天没有找到，然后我的心情瞬间降到了谷底。当时大家肯定都看到了我的大便脸；或许在美国认识了我这么久的人肯定也没有看到我的脸这么阴沉过。手机的遗失只是一个契机；这个里面夹杂了完美主义者对遗失东西的怨念和对自己犯低级错误的不满，特别是我现在这个尤其需要手机的时刻。然后呢，我把自己的低沉心情写在了脸上了。好像当初撞了车一样，在一个非常需要车的时间段我却撞了车，这是无法自己原谅自己的。

幸亏我这个小孩，还是一个好小孩，一个上天眷顾的小孩。我即使跌一跤，摔得很痛，也不会有大危险；经历挫折，情绪低落，也总有柳暗花明的时候。撞了车，虽然花了银子，但是人毫发无伤；手机在我上车时候一瞬间从车座位下面露出了1毫米的屏幕，那1毫米的屏幕亮光就让我找到了它。心情，也就稍稍的平复了。

可是这里暴露出的问题是自己的心，还不够强健。其实这是一个非常矛盾的问题。我是一个很敏感的人，这种敏感表现在可以体会到常人数倍的喜悦和幸福，但是也很容易被生活的小波折左右自己的情绪。一首歌，一副画，一场雨，路上的一个景色，有时候瞬间就会左右我的心情。我希望的状态呢，是自己仍然保持积极的幸福的敏感，而去历练克服低沉的忧伤的敏感，但是这些情感之间本来就是可以互相去转换的，所以这个命题似乎不是特别的成立。那么唯一的解决方法，就是增强自己理性思维对肉体的控制，用理性去战胜基于目前客观事实所不需要的感性了。说白了，我不想让自己成为不以物喜，不以己悲，看破红尘的那种人；我要让自己可以做到保持七情六欲收放自如，一个理性和感性和谐共存的完整的人。要实现这一点，似乎很困难；但是我貌似基本从过去的一个转折点开始就确定要走上一条困难的道路了。

三月就要过去了。总体来说，我的生活轨迹还是螺旋式上升的。一段低谷期伴随一段高峰期。今年一月是精彩高潮的一个月，二月是高低起伏变化的一个月，三月是动荡低沉稳定的一个月。四月和五月，现在还未知。但是我必须，做好自己需要做的每一件事情。放弃一个壮烈的失败，稳步前进，脚踏实地，去追求一个窝囊的胜利。

终于，Tee的肩膀感到有些紧了。看着吧，看我一步步地向前迈进。

Everyone, 加油。


I am here, to protect.

起晚了

雨天，做梦，九点半才醒
居然梦见了在过去的寝室拍DV，类似的场景是2005的事情了吧
突然梦回南大
但是也没有什么眷念了

怀旧的潜台词就是对现状的不满
所以需要动手将它改变

Let's start from here

Let's start from here, Joanna Wong.
Cheers, J!

养精蓄锐

现在要做的，就是把所有自己的事情做好；充分有效的利用时间，适当的放松释放压力。
保持身体健康，旺盛的斗志，积极地心态。

不必担心，我一切都很好。
每天，都如过去一样的持续努力着。

我如果是你就好了

虽然自己走了一百步之中的九十九步，但是你的最后一步却是如此的艰难痛苦
如果我是你就好了，那么这一切都由我来承担，你就可以多一些欢笑，少一些悲伤和心痛
可是我毕竟不是你，所以还是要在这里静静的看着你承受痛苦却无能为力

也不是无能为力，我需要，时刻准备着
至少当你需要的时候，就可以第一时间出现在那里

重要的是，我必须做到最好
这样自己无论如何，都不会后悔

没有如果
所以，打消所有这些关于如果的念头
只有现在
期待未来

从小做起

过去的自己一直都是一个没有长性的人。这一点按照我妈妈的说法，就是直接遗传了我老爸的缺点。虽然中学的时候可以做到每天早上起来读英文，坚持了五年，可是进了大学没有人管的时候瞬间这个好习惯就灰飞烟灭了。甚至过去每天睡觉前刷牙都不能每天执行，房间更是一段时间之后就成了垃圾场了。每每这个时候总是对自己说，振作一下！然后呢，热血万仗的把很多事情做完，之后这个激情曲线就迅速下跌，很快的变又回复到过去的状态了。

多少次对自己说，去锻炼弹跳能扣篮就好了。曾经摸高也能到３米１０多的，现在碰个篮框都难了。这个目标估计是实现不了了。

印象中，自己第一个想坚持做的事情，就是２００４年开始的每天写几句话日记了。当时的想法是，自己将来老了，把这么几十本日记本拿出来看看自己的一生，讲点故事给孩子们听听，肯定会非常的有趣。而且自己至少也会觉得，这一生没有这样虚度。

可是即便这样简单的一天五分钟的事情，翻翻过去的记录也看出来是一种阶段性长久不了的事情。一般是连续几天有记录，然后连续一段的空白；总之呢，按照我们家的话说，就是新盖茅坑三天新，长久不了。

其实呢，这是一个人生态度的问题，或者是我世界观的问题。我的世界观被硬生生扭转之前，自己完全是一个浪漫主义色彩的生活状态。或者说这是一种冠冕堂皇，说穿了就是自己不喜欢给自己约束。我画画的时候也几乎从来不严格的控制比例，精细的处理细节，都是大块涂，粗线条；做事情没有计划，想做什么做什么，靠自己小聪明混日子。但是终究从中学到大学到研究生到社会到美国，这种混的生活方式是万万不行的。或者说不是不行；如果对自己有更高的要求，那么必须做一个苦行僧。其实苦也只是转换过程中的苦，转换过了习惯了也就结了。

有人说，养成一个习惯需要四周的时间。
我说，养成一个习惯之需要四天，只要你内心不停的对自己说我必须这样做，给自己力量。

所以呢，现在自己也是一个伪强迫症患者了。

八点半之前起床。立刻shower，刷牙漱口，早饭，一大杯牛奶＋维生素片。喝水，脸上抹点lotion，整理头发，隐形眼镜，着装完毕，出门。之后慢跑去实验室，泡一杯茶，检查电邮，开工

十二点半到一点午饭，半小时到一小时

五点到五点半收工，跑一公里，器械　或者　篮球　３０分钟到１小时

六点半到八点晚饭整理，结束后没有其它安排再回实验室工作一会

十一点左右回家，开始睡觉前准备工作。运动过了还要shower，除去隐形眼镜，之后吃点宵夜水果，再喝一杯牛奶。写日记。处理点杂事。十二点半到一点睡觉，保持７小时睡眠。睡觉前还稍微活动一下肌肉，深蹲仰卧起坐一会。

这里面有很多事情，已经成了习惯了。自己的日记本从去年１０月到现在，几乎一天也没有空白过了。自己的Research Log，不知不觉也写了快半年了。每天，都觉得是一个新的开始。每天，都觉得通过努力自己和目标又靠近了那么一点点。

加油，J。做一个明亮的自己。

豁然开朗

两年多的时间也没有豁然开朗的生活轨迹，在二零零九年就瞬间的豁然开朗了。年初预感今年对我来说是非常重要的，也是充满了非常多变化的一年，甚至有可能会奠定人生的一个主旋律也说不定。我的直觉还居然出乎意料的准确。下午开了一个Committee的meeting，未来的2个月，3个月，4个月的工作重心都已经被well-planned。目标已经订好，背景也准备好，剩下的就是需要着手去一件一件的把这些事情做掉。在接受到任务的同时我感到了压力，于是去gym稍微调整了一下自己。也许我会稍微的退缩5分钟，但是自己选择的路就一定要坚强的走下去。

很想时间飞速流逝，让自己快速的渡过目前的摸索迷茫等待。但是这个时候，自己的小聪明是不足够的，上天给我的运气也足够好了，剩下的就是脚踏实地的去把每件事情做到最好，一步一步向自己的目标靠近。有时候，我觉得真是谋事在天，成事在人。命运有时候会心血来潮的给你开一点小玩笑，给你一些小希望，给你一些摆在眼前的小机会。至于能不能圆满，能不能得到自己想要的目标和结果，就要靠持续不懈的努力了。光喊口号是不行的，就像很多其他类似的生活中的小事，必须踏实的去逐渐完成并却积累，也许，才能成功。

所以，一起坚持，一起努力吧。

开篇第一文

一直希望能够找到一个可以长期放博客的地方。其实所谓Blog，应该是写给自己看的。如果想Share，那么写在Facebook就好了。不想Share的一些话，有时候也不想藏在心里；那么总要找这样的一个地方，记录一些东西；读者不必很多，能读懂能理解的人读懂理解就可以了。

过去在百合呆过，不过百合的确已经没有了任何的眷恋了。MSN space那可恶的微软类型的不友好和局限又让我这个伪IT工作者非常的不爽。曾经也呆过敏思，但是也是无法忍受那种无法scripting和customize带来的自由。从某种意义上来说我是一个control freak，总是希望自己可以把所有的事情控制的很好，做得很好。但是有些事情，却是自己不能控制所有的parameter，那么只有自己去把能控制的parameter控制好了。

还有一个工作的blog,
GeekMi

以后，就在这里安家了。这也是一个训练自己坚持的过程。